How is it possible that you can be speaking to people one day and the next they come dangerously close death? Its so difficult to come to grips with you own mortality when you see someone close to you fighting for their life. You question everything you've ever said and done in the matter of minutes. After that you go over it again and pick out the most obscure things possible to remember.
I had that experience Sunday. My mom is lying in a hospital bed clinging to life via a resperator. The 8 hours of excruaciating waiting was enough to want to die myself. At the same time i had to hold on to the belief that she would hold on. No one wants to think of not being around their parents.
I guess the older i get the more i realize that my folks aren't going to be here forever but damn,I wasn't expecting this.
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I really know how that feels, my mom passed away when I was six from breast cancer. I cant imagine growing up and living the experiences of life with her and then having to say goodbye. I guess either way you cant get yourself ready to say goodbye to the ones you love. You just have to love them every moment you can and live on their memories. I wish the best for you.
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