How easy is it seems to be the one saying "If you need anything let me know" yet difficult to assimilate the sentiment when it is directed at you.
I realize that more often than not it is a formality issued from one person to another. I also realize that most people have no real intention to either provide "anything" or accept "anything"
So then why do people say it?
I guess from my dealings in the last week, that it seems to bring a level of comfort to hear. While I have no intention of ever asking anyone for anything it is soothing to know that people are at least kind enough to ask.
I don't know... right now I can't focus, can't eat right, can't sleep right. It seems like if i do then thats when i'm going to get the call.
As strong as I show myself to be to my family I know the second that I know for sure she is gone I will be lost.
Now i could never tell my family that i'm an emotional wreck, nor can i show it outwardly.
To do show would be to dishonor my mom. She would accept no less than for me to hold my family together during this time as she always did.
Sure wish i didn't have to.
